Two Worlds - Part 2
Not Everyone Is a
Youíd hardly call the lady who got your coat all
messed up the other day a neighbor, would
you George? She didnít act
like one. Didnít act like a neighbor, did she? [Not
at all.] Not really.
So we donít have those
kinds of neighbors.
Now maybe we all maybe have a neighbor, somebody
who got us to see a little differently
than we had seen. If we could get
out of feeling bad, ugly, abnormal and out,
that would be
quite a change, is it not? You ever have feelings of
inferiority? You ever have feelings of guilt?
Fear? [Sure.] And all these things.
Hmm? Do you see theyíve all been manufactured
for us? They were, they were handmade deals.
And they sold them to us for free. BUTóif
you want to go to some
professional in this group over here to get
rid of those feelings, hmm?
That youíre bad or ugly or abnormal or out,
do they do that for free or does that cost you dearly?
(laughter) Hmm? That costs you dearly.
You know, you always heard the old story about
putting the fox to watch the henhouse. So the
guys who give you the
feeling of being bad, ugly, abnormal and out, you go pay fantastic fees
to get over the feelings, isnít that right? Hmm?
Youíre sure theyíre going to do it. Or are they
going to give you some
more standards to go by? No doubt.
So comes along that thereís a lot of people that
call up and ask questions, or they ask me in
person, how do I get rid of
the feeling of anxiety, or how do I get rid of a feeling of inferiority,
or how to I get rid of a feeling of fear, or anger, or whatever, you
know, they have all these things.
Youíre heard of them, haven't
youówhether you've had them or not, youĎve heard of them. Well,
statement is always, that you experience a feeling freely.
No Need to Pay
Someone to Rid You of Unpleasant Feelings, Just Experience It Freely
Of course we donít try to get rid of the feeling we
just go ahead and have it. I have it. So I might
as well experience it
freely. Now youíre going to experience a feeling you have, even though
youíre kicking and screaming about it. Is that right? Youíre going to
have it. You might as well
do it gracefully and say I have a feeling of
inferiority, so I will just feel inferior for a while, Iíll
here an indulge in a feeling of inferiority, because it is an indulging,
for sure and certain.
So Iíll just feel inferior. The minute you are
really free to feel inferior, you know something?
You donít feel
inferior anymore. Did you ever sit down to freely worry awhile? (laughter
) Just sit here and ďIím going to worry about
this.Ē You start laughing. You know, itís all gone.
And letís say that
Iím fearful. Well who am I that I shouldnít feel a little fear once in a
Most people in the world have, itís not fatal. If it was there
wouldnít be any people living,
would there? Huh?
Wouldnít be anybody around (laughter).
When You're Free to Have It...
So, if you feel fearful freely, say, all right, Iím
going to sit here and be scared a little while,
(laughter) just going to
get scaredóall of a sudden you canít find it. Itís gone, it disappeared,
it dissipated, itís nonexistent. But oh if
you go to the shrink, and you begin to work diligently
to find all these
fears that were implanted in you in infancy and childhood, and you had
many traumatic experiences that you can no longer find, and you
have to depend on dreams
and etc. and somebody to analyze them, to find
themóyou can chase fears for the next seventy
years, if you should live
so long. You can chase them. But youíre still fearful. So why not just
be free to have any old fear that comes by, I donít care where it came
from, if it came from
grandmother, the father, or the mother, or
whatever, who cares where it came from. Why not
just go ahead and feel
fearful, itís all right, it wonít hurt you. Did anybody ever sit and
fearful freely? [Ö] Itíll go away real quick, why donít you try it
sometime. [I worked on it this
week but I guess I didnít do a very good
job.] Well, you werenít free to have it, you
trying to get rid of it by being free. (laughter)
Itís like I told a man one
day that if--he came in telling me his terrible problem with insomnia.
He couldnít get to sleep at night. He said I tried, I tried, I TRIED,
I canít get to sleep. So, I said,
tonight when you go to bed, instead of trying to go to sleep, determine
youíre going to
stay awake all night and listen to all the night sounds.
Listen to traffic off in the distance, listen
to the dogs bark, listen
to the birds that go by, and what have you, and listen to the creaking
the walls and whatever. Just listen. So next day he came in and I
said How about it? And he said
I never had such a good night sleep in my
life. I slept all night. I said fine. So youíre over your
said sure, I know what to do now. So in order to get to sleep that night
to stay awake, and he managed quite nicely, he stayed awake all
night (laughter). You see, the
human mind is a great trickery device,
because itís thoroughly conditioned. So now he knew
how to get himself
to sleep, so he was going to do it in order to get to sleep. He wasnít
to stay awake the next night, he was
trying to get to sleep by listening. So he stayed awake all night.
True Freedom is Free TO, Not Striving to Be
So, we hear about something that Iím perfectly free
to feel fearful. Huh? And itíll go away.
So Iím going to feel fearful to
see if it goes away. And itís still here. (laughter).
Is that right Marilyn?
[Thatís right.} Thatís exactly what you did. So
when I say that weíre free to experience a feeling,
itís tomorrow, itís any other time. So letís
put a simple word on it:
I am free to experience whatever may arise
in my way today. Youíre going to. If an angry
customer comes in,
youíre going to have an angry customer. You might as well sit there and
him. Right Mark? If youíre going to
talk to her on the phone, you might as well let her be. You know.
And, so if you experience anything freely, you have
come up with freedom. So basically we always
think in terms of free
from. I want to get free from this, free from that, free from the other
Hmm? That never works. Any more than
if I signs that said from Santa Fe, or, San Jose over the hill
could follow those all day and all night and all day tomorrow and Iíll
never get to San Jose,
is that right? Because if I followed signs that
said TO San Jose, a reasonable thing youíd be over
there before too
long. But if you started out to be free TO, which we are, but we have
recognized it, free TO experience whatever may arise in my way
today, you find very quickly you
have no conflict or struggle with
anything. So Iíll be fearful, why not be fearful a couple of days,
know, so what.
Suppose you feel inferior. Most of us have come up
with that nice feeling somewhere or other.
Some of us hide it from
ourselves and think itís bad and we cover it up by trying to act
but, so Iím inferior. So what. Iím
comfortable that way. I donít have to live up to everything.
If I was
superior, think of all these rules I have to live up to, I donít have to
bother if Iím inferior.
So, I can go ahead and be inferior peacefully.
So what? So Iím inferior to everybody. Far as I know
I have never met a
person I was inferior to because I set a standard for it. I said the
first guy I see
walking along with his feet six feet up in the air and
clear space down there below and Iím having
to walk on the pavement,
heís, Iím inferior to him, I havenít met him yet.
If I meet somebody and heís walking along here, his
feetís up here see [audience does not get it]
his headís up there, and
Iím having to walk on the ground then heís
superior to me. But I havenít
met him yet, okay? [okay]
is that right? I also figure that people who donít like me just have
taste. You know, thatís simple, Iím through with it then, they just
have poor taste. [I tried that and
it didnít work either.] Well, you
were trying to get over it. You werenít
experiencing it freely.
See, you were using all the tricks you heard to
get over it. [Thatís right.] You werenít free to
it, you were using trickery to get over it.
Huh? [Right.] Now the tricks are only to
you, but not to be trying to live, youíre free to experience
feeling inferior or angry or whatever the
case may be. Okay?
Fearful, whatever. It
doesnít make any difference.
Youíre asking a question? [Why even put a qualifier
on it, like you say, he has poor taste, why not
just say he has
DIFFERENT taste? Why put a qualifier on it, make a judgment on it.] He
[Say different taste.] Well, I just donít think he has poor
taste, except for me. You see, Clarence,
my mother said there was no
conceit in the family, I had it all. Thatís where I put it out there,
know, anybody doesnít like me they got poor taste, thatís all. Iím
through with that, I can go on
my way then. Iím not trying to be good.
Just going on. Iím free to be inferior, Iím
free to be fearful,
and Iím free to be anxious. We all have those
feelings once in a while, donít you? And if you do it
trying to use that as a method to get rid of it, but youíre still saying
Iím not free to
have this, Iím going to use every method I ever heard
;of to get rid of it. Why donít you just go
on and be inferior?
[What about angry?] Why
not be free to be angry, what difference does ;it
make? Letís get angry
right now. You know something you could be ticked
off about, couldnít you? Know somebody
you could be angry with right
now? Huh? Letís do it. Letís you and I sit here andóyou get very
with this person right now, really work it up. Get your teeth clenched,
get your hands, put
your feet down hard on the floor, grinch your jaw,
be very angry at this old girl, okay? Ö
laughing. (laughter). Do you see, the
minute youíre, the minute youíre free to do something, you
canít pull it
off, okay? Right? Like
worrying about something. Letís worry up a storm. Now if you
wereÖ [Iím not going to worry about what I was worrying about.] Well,
Iíd worry about it, a lot.
(Laughter) Ö. Full timeÖ and you find
yourself, youíre all out of kilter with it in
a very short order.
Most People Have Not
Discovered That They Are Free TO
So what we are trying to point out, that the minute
we are really free to do something, not using
it as a technique now,
okay [still got the technique going] You got the technique. You got
with the method. [Thatís right.] The method is only something to
remind us, the point is Iím free.
Now most of us havenít discovered that
we are free. We think that weíve got to do that first
decision I put up
there this morning, the whole purpose of living is be nondisturbed, and
got to use some method to get rid of this little disturbance. Like
feeling inferior or whatever it is.
So, weíre not trying
to be non-disturbed, weíre trying only to be conscious. And to be
is to be aware that Iím a human being and subject to
every and any kind of a feeling and I can
have the feeling of inferiority without being in any great danger. So
So I feel inferior for a few minutes or an hour.
Then soon as Iím really free to we canít even find it,
but, letís say
Iím perfectly free to be fearful, Iím free to be angry.
Trying to Be Free
From is a Constant Struggle
A man told me one time that you couldnít enjoy
living until youíre free to be dead. And you
companionship until you were free to be lonely. That
you couldnít be free to
enjoy good health until you were free to be
sick. Because if youíre going to sit around
worry about getting sick, itíll get you there before long. So
I tried to be free to be sick, whatís
wrong with being sick, look at all
the attention you get, you know. So youíre free to be sick,
to be lonely. Youíre free to be unappreciated. So what? Iím free to feel
When I have all those then Iím truly free. A free individual
is living, the others are struggling,
So when youíre trying to be free from something youíre in a constant
When youíre free TOóso Iím free to put up
with obnoxious people. There one I have a little
free to and thatís bores, but you know, Iím getting used to that, too
That was the hardest one to work, boredom, boring people,
you know. That took a little time.
But I had to get free to that also,
because I run into my share of those as I go about everything.
So. That was a hard one, though, but theyíre
there, so you can do that also.
So then you have discovered freedom, and when
youíre truly free youíre not trying to be
non-disturbed, you are pretty
close to it. Okay? But itís a byproduct of being free, not of a
to get free, and not finding some techniques to use, okay? The
techniqueís good for
one time, like stay awake all night and listen to
sounds. Once. Youíll go to sleep. Next night
youíll try to use it to get to sleep with and then it wonít work. You
heard me? Okay, good,
now I got that done.
Okay, we will stop for a minute or two and letís
have questions, comments, discussions,
words, challenges, what have you.
Iím sure I made it as clear as mud. Yes maíam.
[UmÖ this, when you were talking about the baby and
the wish to get back to the non-
Now, determined that that was the whole purpose of things I put up
[IÖ have beenÖ seeing the whole human race as I guess a single
entity] thatís about rightÖ
[Iíve seen evolution, you know, the
saber-toothed tigers back here and weíre still acting
as if theyíre
running around] yeah, weíre still acting like a saber-toothed tiger is
every post, especially at night. Under the bed, arenít they
George? [Right!] George put two
tigers under the bedÖ [Well I always figured that most of my life after
age three was a gift because Iím so nearsighted that I would have
been eaten by oneÖ]
Well thank goodness somebody made a little optical
discovery and you can see all right, huh?
[And the tigerÖ] You can see
the tiger. [If you keep your eye on him he canít hurt you]
(laughter) [Does it work, um, in other words, I guess what
Iím asking is, can, would you,
make a (?) fitting together this
development thing youíre talking about. Is it an evolutionary
am I trying to put two things together thatÖ]
A Few Evolve, Many
No, I think youíre doing all right. I think youíre
doing all right. I think the human race as
a whole evolves somewhat.
Okay? But the reason they evolved was because of a few
did a job on their own. In other words, if you evolve a bit, thereís an
lot of copying of it. They may not get it all, but they get a
little of itóOkay? If nobody had
evolved any the human race would still
be wherever the saber-tooth tigers are, if
existed at all. So evolution comes about, thereís no ifs ands
about that, of the whole race,
to some degree. But itís only because
itís some individual goes to work to be conscious
rather than just go
So if you would aid evolution a bit, you work real
hard at being a conscious individual
who has discovered how a few things
work, like freedom, and how there is two worlds,
and how that you can
see the conditioning of the Not-Iís operating and you become a
individual, you affect a tremendous number of people. I donít know how
it is because I have no way of checking up on it, but a man told me
that if there were two
hundred fully conscious people in the world, it
would transform the whole thing. Not the
other way around, that if we
all just sit here and say well, evolution will take care of us
while, I expect that weíll still be sitting here the next ten million
years, if weíre not
extinct by then, with the thing still going on.
Because unless somebody evolves, as a
effort, and it is an effortóthe material is simple. The action
and putting it to
use is a little on the difficult side, okay? It takes
some work. But if we do that then you
have done considerable to evolve
the human race. No matter how insignificant you as
an individual may
think yourself to be. If you have evolved to being a conscious person,
even part of the way, you have done much towards evolving the human
race. But not the
other way around. So if we
just sit and wait for it to happen, say, oh, itís going on anyway,
forget it. Okay? Does that help answer your question?
How Do You Know If
[Yeah, but how can you tell if youíre evolving into
a conscious person?] Well, you can
find out how miserable you are most
of the time, kind of check up on it once in a while
(laughter) I donít
think itís fearful and miserable, okay? (laughter)
are not trying to be happy, or, they wouldnít trade
places with anybody, but they are
what other people might call happy
individuals. Because they are NOT in conflict and
struggle all the time.
The unconscious person is always in a state of conflict and struggle.
The conscious person is not in conflict,
okay? So you can find out whether youíve got
tight spots in
your solar plexus, will help you give a pretty good notice, is that all
You know where your solar plexus is? Right in
there. And if itís all tied up in knots and
jumping a lot, youíre not very conscious at that moment. Does
that help? Okay.
All right, next question,
comment. Go ahead, Iím listeningÖ [No, I was listening to
wind] The wind is beautiful out there, real weird
sound, sounds like Halloween eve,
screaming around the corner as
you fully expect to look out there and see snow piling up.
[Da Vinci be one of those men?] I think Da Vinci was
pretty well in the conscious level,
yes, from what we can read, I didnít
meet the guy, but from everything I can see about
him he had pretty much
on the ball. He wasnít worried about too many things. Heíd had
heíd have done real well. But he didnít have an engine to put in his
he didnít make an airplane. And he made a car but he didnít
have an engine to put in it.
Somebody had got there and made an engine
everythingíd been pretty good. But he was
a little short of that. Okay.
Weíll put some other things here Ö practical world
and the man-made world and real
world, and especially all the wonderful
people that provide problems for us. (laughter)
Think, Act, Feel
It is interesting to see that we canít do near as
many things as we think we can do. But
those things that we can do are
extremely worthwhile if we use them. And if we just go
to sleep and
donít use them very well, they can get tedious. You can think. I think
everybody here agrees to that. Can you not? You can think, you can act,
and you can feel.
Somebody tell me something else you can do. Anybody
got any words on it? You got
anything else you can do? [Create] Well,
that's done with a combination of those some way
or other, isnít it?
Weíre going to get there in a minute. But to do it you have to think,
and feel. Can you think of something else you could do? [What'í
remembering, how do
youÖ] Well, thatís a form of thinking, isnít it?
Yeah, you can recall [Wondering] Wondering
is thinking, kind of
gathering goat feathers, but weíre out there thinking anyway, we call
thinking. [See?] Well, thatís an act, isnít it? Close your eyes and you
canít see. So. Open
them and you can see, is
that right? Huh? Okay. Can you tell me something you can do
think or act or feel. I donít think so. Iíve
been struggling with it a long time.
[Observe something] Well, thatís an
act of observing, is it not? If you donít perform
an act you donít
observe anything. I believe thatís very well down there. We could put
all kinds of synonyms besides think, act, feel. But that still comes out
the same thing.
Most People Feel,
Act on Feeling, Think About It
So ordinarily we wake up feeling a certain way. Or
somebody else comes along and
determines a feeling us by their behavior.
You know, we meet a pleasant person and
we feel nice, or we meet an old
grump and we feel terrible. Is that about right?
Somebody calls you on the phone, goes blah, blah, blah, you
feel bad, is that right?
And we have a kid around and the kid gets
unruly, or belligerent or what have you
we feel upset and angry and what have you, whatever the case may be.
we have a feeling.
Now when we feel a certain way we act something
that goes with it. We can all stand
and look at somebody, by the way
they are acting, and be pretty well certain as to how
is that right? Can you look at somebody and
say theyíre worried?
[Sure.] Or theyíre angry. Or theyíre upset. Or
theyíre happy, you can do that, canít you,
every one of us can, thereís
no way, we all can tell. We may not know exactly what we
read in there,
but we can see it real well. Okay? So we feel.
And then we think to explain why we acted so funny.
Is that right? We think up a good
excuse, itís all
your fault, you did this, and you did that, and so forth. So, you
that that does spell a word (FAT) Most of this is going on in our
head, so Iíll leave you
to put the appropriate word on it.
Feeling and Action
Are a Two-way Street
Now, there is one thing that we can always notice,
that feeling and action are a two-way
not a one-way street. As you feel, you will have again to act, but if
put on an act which is under your control, you try to
act in a certain way, you will begin
like youíre acting. You ever try that one? If you act angry long enough,
begin to feel it. It
only takes a few seconds. Even though
there wasnít a thing in the world for you to be angry
If you played sick long enough. When you were
a kid and wanted to get out of
school, did you ever pretend to be ill so
mama wouldnít get you up and send you off to
school because it was exam
day or something? Did you ever do that? Did it come up
sick for real
after while? Ö
So letís use this a little bit different. If I do
thinking first then I will ask How would I
to feel? You know everything weíre all concerned with is how we
feel, isnít it? Isnít that
what youíre concerned with all the time? How
you feel. If you feel happy you donít go
worrying about it much, hmm?
Itís only when you donít like the way you feel you sit
down and worry
over it, is that correct? So what youíre interested in is how you feel.
So if we said, Iíll use my thinking apparatus here to determine how I
would like to feel.
Thatís the first question. Well letís say that I
would like to feel, very thankful.
I think another work for thankful might be happy.
Is that correct? Possible? So I would
feel thankful. Now then I would ask myself how would I be acting if I
real thankful? Well, I would be
going around with somewhat of a smile on my face, Iíd
standing up erect, I wouldnít be dragging down. END
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